BROKEN PROMISES

Date : 20 Apr 2010.
Time: 6.30pm
Venue: Cafe Coffee Day Jaya nagar iv blcok


Abhinav  had always been bad at keeping promises  .The utter of  ABHINAV  is been blended with lilttle anger and  Lots of  Luv .Though he is not good at keeping promises   she knew that  he'd offer her  the skies and fight the world for her.  she knew  that he is always beside her to support  and she believed every bit of  him. 

Yeah he is not good at keeping promises ..  but  when logged in to technical details... i  dont blame him...  coz he always tries his best to be beside me...  and i can  see his struggle and pain  to keep his  word, but then  it still  doesnt stop me from being resent ful .. at end of day i had to succumb dissapointment... 


Speaking of the very few promises he made ( Yeah, he was smart to know that he was never good at them anyways), there was the time when we had gone shopping, at commercial street  .  He had never been good at bargaining. He was simply too soft hearted and sympathetic. II had the flair for the endless bargains.  and when  we started for shopping  I had made him  to  promise that he'd not interfere with my bargaining banter, and not pay behind my back. Having agreed to this, we hit the streets.

It seemed as though it'd rain any moment. He wanted to get away before the rains begin. And I had other ideas. After all, its not every other day that you get to drench in the rains with your beloved beside  and the other reason is coz  my shopping was just getting better. The price of 750 rupees had just come down to 300. And, I was firing away to glory. But just as the first droplets of the rain hit our skin, he shoved some hundred rupee notes to the shopkeeper and dragged me away, before I could even respond. The rain did drench us. But all plans of a romantic bollywood rain dance had been washed away.  though the moment we had a fight.. i do understand  that he cares for me and do not want me to get sick ...

Another time I had made him  to  promise to come with me to the SidhiVinayak Temple . He being the self proclaimed agnostic (or was it atheist, I really never listened to him), had never relented to step into any religious shrine. But with much persuasion (which has a synonym of   blackmail, dadagiri , LOVE ), he gave up, finally.
 I do remember  wearing up a sari  and started to get ready  from  5   and took me 2 hrs to come up in  way  he'd always wanted to see me in. So as per our plans, on the great day, I draped my denim-hugging-tshirt-loving frame into several yards of golden silk.Satisfied with the final result, I stepped out of home, reacjed temple at sharp 7am. I waited for him. The time was 7.15, then 7.30...8... 8.30...9...Despite my 100 odd phone calls, none picked up. Furious, I left to home. At half past 10, I got his call Pelading with the excuse that he had Over-Slept though   for the next several months, I made sure that he never got any sleep :) :)  . So much for promises.

adn now i am here  as we had plan to meet at 6.00.  My mind wasted no time to plan and plot heinous punishments for him. then, my cell phone rang. It wasn't him though. I sat through the one sided conversation, that lasted for a few seconds, but seemed like an eternity. The cell phone slipped through my hands. I didn't bother. All I knew was, I needed to be at Nanavati Hospital - Critical Care.

I saw him, entangled in tubes and devices. I met his brother outside the ER. The accident had been bad. And there was nothing much they could do. And he had been put on artificial ventilation. I wanted to be there, with him. I moved into the room, sat next to him. I looked at him, and I wanted to scream and yell and cry...It felt like he wanted to speak through his unconsciousness. I felt as though he wanted to say sorry...to apologize...to make up...to make me smile...And, I was sorry too..so sorry...

"I know you were always bad at keeping your  promises...But, I did not know, you'd try this hard to break one..." It came as satiire but full of tears in my eyes...

I knew I had to let go... 

"I am so sorry sweetheart...But I know I need to let you go...I need to pull the plug...Shall I? I promised you once, just once, that I'd never let you off so easy...But, now darling, I realise letting you go is the only thing I can do... Am so sorry for us, for those broken dreams...But am glad, I have had all the love, and today, I am gonna give it all to let you go...Goodbye Sweetheart...I love you.. Abhi ."
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I have loved him despite all those broken promises. I have loved him in spite of everything. And as I let go of him tpday, I realized that love is not about holding on. Its more about letting go. For, Letting go takes Love and gives LOVE  :) :)