బాలికా వదు

ఇ మద్య కొంచం ఖాలి ఎక్కువై ఇ సిరియల్ లొని ఒక ఎపిసొడ్ చుడడం జరిగింది. మములుగా ఇలంటి సిరియల్ పెరు చుడగనె చెంజ్ చెసె నెను అ రొజు మత్రం చుడల్సి వచ్ఛింది.. కాని అ సిరియల్ లొని నెగటివెస్ అందరికి తెలిసిందె బట్ ఒక పొసిటిఎవ్ఎంటి అంటె... హిరొ హిరొఇఎన్ లు చిన్న పిల్లలు వల్లకి శొ అంద్ శొ కారణలు చెప్పి పెళ్ళిచెసెస్తారు.. దని తరువత ఇంత్లొ పెద్ద అవిడ అ అమ్మాయిచదువు మని పించెస్తుంది. అప్పుడు అ అబ్బయి బహుష తనకి ఒక 10 సంవసృఅరలు వుంటయెమొ.. ఏజ్ లొ.. అ అమ్మయిని.. ఇంట్లొ వల్లు అలగె అంతరు.. అని పట్టించుకొవద్దు అని చెప్పి.. అ అమ్మయిని కుర్చొబెటి మరి చదివిస్తదు..అంద్ థెన్ థె గిర్ల్ విల్ల్ బె థె టొప్పెర్ క్లాస్..

ఇ సిరియల్ లొ ని సొది చుసి ఎంత మంది ఎం నెర్చుకున్నరొ లెక నెర్చుకుంటూనరొ.. తెలిదు కని..

 అ సపొర్ట్ టొ థైర్ పార్ట్నెర్ ఫ్రొం థట్ చైల్డ్మత్రం నాకు తెలిసి మిగతా అందరు.. పెళ్ళీ చెసుకునె అబ్బయిలు , అమ్మయిలు అందరు నెర్చుకొవాలి...

ఉహలు

నీకూ నాకు అనుబంధం నా పుట్టుకతోనే ఏర్పడిపోయింది .. ఆటలాడినా ,అన్నం తిన్నా ,అలసిపోయినా ఆలోచనలో ఉన్నా నాకు తెలియకుండానే అక్కున చేర్చుకుంటావు ..కమ్మని కలల్లాంటి కబుర్లు చెప్తావు..అవి ఒక్కోసారి పెదవులపై నవ్వులు పూయిస్తే, ఇంకోసారి గుండెల్లో వణుకుని తెప్పిస్తాయి...ఆ క్షణం ఉలిక్కిపడినా ,భయం వేసినా కోపం వచ్చినా కొద్ది క్షణాలే .. మళ్ళీ నీ వెచ్చని కౌగిలిలో చేరిపోతాను ..



.నా మీద నీకున్న ప్రేమను చూసి అసూయపడినవారెందరో..నువ్వు వాళ్ళను కన్నెత్తి చూడటానికి కూడా ఇష్టపడవని ,ఒక వేళ పలకరించినా మొహమాటంగా అంటి అంటనట్లు ఉంటావని చాలా సార్లు నాదగ్గర వాపోయారు..వాళ్ళ అసూయచూసి ఎంత గర్వంగా ఉండేదో తెలుసా ...



మన బంధం ఇలాగే ఉంటుందని ఎవరూ విడదీయరని అనుకున్నానా ..అనుకున్న కొద్దిరోజులకే మన ఎడబాటు నా పెళ్ళిరూపంలో వచ్చేసింది.. చిన్నప్పుడు నా అల్లరి భరించలేక బలవంతంగా నీకు అప్పగించి పనులు చక్కబెట్టుకున్న అమ్మానాన్నే నాకో తోడును తీసుకొచ్చి నీకు దూరం చేసేసారు ...



అయినా వాళ్ళను అని ఏం లాభంలే నేను మాత్రం తక్కువ తిన్నానా? నువ్వు గుమ్మం దగ్గర దీనంగా నావైపు చూసినా, నేనున్నాను అని సంజ్ఞలు చేసినా కొత్త మోజులో పట్టించుకునేదాన్ని కాదు.. అతని నవ్వులు ,అతని మాటలు ,అతని చేతలు,అతని బాసలు అన్నీ నీకంటే ఎక్కువ మత్తెక్కించేవి ... అందుకే నువ్వెక్కడ మా ఇద్దరి మధ్యలో వచ్చేస్తావో అని విదిలించికొట్టేదాన్ని..చిన్న బుచ్చుకున్నావో...మనసు నొచ్చుకున్నావో మెల్లగా నాకు తెలియకుండానే దూరం అయిపోయావు..



ఎవరి పేరు చెప్పి బాధ్యతలు ,బంధాలు అని అప్పటివరకూ నిన్ను నిర్లక్ష్యం చేసానో వాళ్ళ అవసరాలు తీరంగానే నన్ను నిర్లక్ష్యం చేసేస్తున్నారు ..అప్పుడుగాని నీ విలువ తెలియలేదు.. హఠాత్తుగా దిగులైపోయాను నువ్వు గొర్తొచ్చి ..మన అనుబంధం గుర్తొచ్చి..నాకు నేనే పలకరించాలని ఎంత ప్రయత్నించినా నా వైపు చూడవు .. చూసినా ఇంతకు ముందులా అక్కున చేర్చుకోవు.... ఎప్పుడో నీకు దయకలిగితే పలకరిస్తావు లేదా నేను విదిలించికొట్టినట్లే విదిలించిపోతావు..





చేసింది తప్పే ఇంకెప్పుడూ దూరం చేసుకోను ...నాకోసం మళ్ళీ వచ్చేయవూ ... గాఢమైన నిద్రలో నన్ను సేదతీర్చవూ ...మునుపటిలాగే నీ కలల కబుర్లలో నన్ను ముంచెత్తవూ..నీవులేకపోతే జీవించడం కష్టం...ఎందుకంటే నువ్వు నా నిద్రాదేవివి. 

Change is INEVITABLE..... :)

It's almost three and half months I posted something on my blog and I could not blame time also which made me to forget my blog address...


Life has been  changed in a big way in these 3 months  short span but a big turn.... :)
there were gains and there were learnings
and everything feels like it happened just yesterday

and Just After My Birthday Celebration....  fell in love with one of the best guys in the world ,got married to him ....and went through ups and downs (Still in Continuous Tense .. rather i make it going through ups and downs... ) and realized the joy of love and pain of reponsibilites  sticking together
put on weight....putting on  weight
met new people.....love some....hate some
learning  cooking....
and so on

Last Three months is filled with moments of many first times
- Fell in love for the first Time
- First time  Travel Through Flight with my BEST HALF ;)
- candle light dinner ,Sea Side Dinner , Pool Side Dinner .... for the first time
- Holding  hands together  and walked under the moon beside the sea  for the first time
 and many more... for the first time... ;)


But life took a back seat in another way:
stopped reading and learning things,
        stopped being in touch with best of friends, stopped worrying about my weight and stopped blogging

So now just taken my time to post my feelings which makes me feel that i havent abandoned my blog :):)

Happy Birthday.

Yeah  this is the day  for which I was excited and will be exicited .. in all my years..  One of My Wish to Disrtibute Sweets in School  though didnt get fullfilled
in all my School days as I get my Birthday always in vacation.. :(   I still remember my Barbie doll birthday gift from my dad with which
I have played all along and kept it safe till now.. and the first gift from my Friend a Reynolds pen in my  FifthStandard ...  and
all the gathering infront of which i was holding my barbie doll and celebrated my Birthday...

and First Birthday without my Family Members in My Hostel With  My Friends  where all my friends Wished (I would rather say Shouts )
and got me up from my Sleep.. 

The Birthday in my First job where we  bunked our office and celebrated...

and now thanks to all my friends who still take the pain of my company and wished me .. though they are miles away from me
Made me to remember all the days... :)

Finally I Wish MySelf a Happy BirthDay .. and Hope ALL the Coming Days Are  INTERESTING (Yeah sounds   a little novalty  but i am serious ) and Happy .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :)

BROKEN PROMISES

Date : 20 Apr 2010.
Time: 6.30pm
Venue: Cafe Coffee Day Jaya nagar iv blcok


Abhinav  had always been bad at keeping promises  .The utter of  ABHINAV  is been blended with lilttle anger and  Lots of  Luv .Though he is not good at keeping promises   she knew that  he'd offer her  the skies and fight the world for her.  she knew  that he is always beside her to support  and she believed every bit of  him. 

Yeah he is not good at keeping promises ..  but  when logged in to technical details... i  dont blame him...  coz he always tries his best to be beside me...  and i can  see his struggle and pain  to keep his  word, but then  it still  doesnt stop me from being resent ful .. at end of day i had to succumb dissapointment... 


Speaking of the very few promises he made ( Yeah, he was smart to know that he was never good at them anyways), there was the time when we had gone shopping, at commercial street  .  He had never been good at bargaining. He was simply too soft hearted and sympathetic. II had the flair for the endless bargains.  and when  we started for shopping  I had made him  to  promise that he'd not interfere with my bargaining banter, and not pay behind my back. Having agreed to this, we hit the streets.

It seemed as though it'd rain any moment. He wanted to get away before the rains begin. And I had other ideas. After all, its not every other day that you get to drench in the rains with your beloved beside  and the other reason is coz  my shopping was just getting better. The price of 750 rupees had just come down to 300. And, I was firing away to glory. But just as the first droplets of the rain hit our skin, he shoved some hundred rupee notes to the shopkeeper and dragged me away, before I could even respond. The rain did drench us. But all plans of a romantic bollywood rain dance had been washed away.  though the moment we had a fight.. i do understand  that he cares for me and do not want me to get sick ...

Another time I had made him  to  promise to come with me to the SidhiVinayak Temple . He being the self proclaimed agnostic (or was it atheist, I really never listened to him), had never relented to step into any religious shrine. But with much persuasion (which has a synonym of   blackmail, dadagiri , LOVE ), he gave up, finally.
 I do remember  wearing up a sari  and started to get ready  from  5   and took me 2 hrs to come up in  way  he'd always wanted to see me in. So as per our plans, on the great day, I draped my denim-hugging-tshirt-loving frame into several yards of golden silk.Satisfied with the final result, I stepped out of home, reacjed temple at sharp 7am. I waited for him. The time was 7.15, then 7.30...8... 8.30...9...Despite my 100 odd phone calls, none picked up. Furious, I left to home. At half past 10, I got his call Pelading with the excuse that he had Over-Slept though   for the next several months, I made sure that he never got any sleep :) :)  . So much for promises.

adn now i am here  as we had plan to meet at 6.00.  My mind wasted no time to plan and plot heinous punishments for him. then, my cell phone rang. It wasn't him though. I sat through the one sided conversation, that lasted for a few seconds, but seemed like an eternity. The cell phone slipped through my hands. I didn't bother. All I knew was, I needed to be at Nanavati Hospital - Critical Care.

I saw him, entangled in tubes and devices. I met his brother outside the ER. The accident had been bad. And there was nothing much they could do. And he had been put on artificial ventilation. I wanted to be there, with him. I moved into the room, sat next to him. I looked at him, and I wanted to scream and yell and cry...It felt like he wanted to speak through his unconsciousness. I felt as though he wanted to say sorry...to apologize...to make up...to make me smile...And, I was sorry too..so sorry...

"I know you were always bad at keeping your  promises...But, I did not know, you'd try this hard to break one..." It came as satiire but full of tears in my eyes...

I knew I had to let go... 

"I am so sorry sweetheart...But I know I need to let you go...I need to pull the plug...Shall I? I promised you once, just once, that I'd never let you off so easy...But, now darling, I realise letting you go is the only thing I can do... Am so sorry for us, for those broken dreams...But am glad, I have had all the love, and today, I am gonna give it all to let you go...Goodbye Sweetheart...I love you.. Abhi ."
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I have loved him despite all those broken promises. I have loved him in spite of everything. And as I let go of him tpday, I realized that love is not about holding on. Its more about letting go. For, Letting go takes Love and gives LOVE  :) :)

MSLC

Narration from Abhinav -- Software Engineer  **( Note : chadivetappudu abhinav perspective ante oka abbayi perspective lo chadavagalaru )


October month. appude inter aipoyi.. eamcet counselling lo engineering seat tetchukoni college hostel lo vunna rojulu.. 1st yr nunchi 4th year daka .. okate hot topic... Love , affair , he/she gurinchi gossips... mm abba villaki ivi kaka inke topic lu vundava ani astyaram vesedi... taruvatha 1-2 years okate topic vadiki TCS lo vachindi.. vidiki Wipro lo vachindi,... classmates ni kalavadam papam casual question aina... heart lo ekkado pric chestadi ...a QUESTION EM chestunanv..??? a question ni tappinchukodanikii jarige gettogether lu.. , friends valla akka pellilu , annaya pellilu anni miss cheyali,.... ( idi koncham Tika ,Verri, % ekkuva vunnavalu chese panulu ) sare ani kastamo.. adrustamo.. MNC kakapoina... MCN ni imitatie chese company lo job dorikindi... santoshanga nenu Margadarsi lo cheranu naku oka udyogam vundi ippudu adgandi raaaaa a question .. samadanam cheputa ani manasulo andukoni chala rojulaga padi vunna messenger lo online lo ki velliteeeeee ... mmm inkemundi... adedo sametha cheppinnatu Somebody changes the Lock every time when I found the key annatu...samadanam aithe vundi kani ippdu question vere... topic vere..
Pelleppudu ???? ani..... appatike ardam aipoindiii race lo manam Last ani... :) mm melliga friends lo float ayye question family daka flow aindi... “inko samvatsaram daakaa naaku pelli vaddu murro” ani yenta ginchukunnaa intlo vaallu vinalaa. Na maatalu nachchaka andaroo rendu rojulu bhojanam maanestaaremo anukunnanu .kaani Naku tindi pettadam manesaru . daanto oppukoka tappaledu. ilaanti paristite daadaapu andaridee. pelliki oppukogaane mana badhyatantaa ayipodu. nijaaniki appati nunche assalu torture modalu. so Software engineer ni anipichukovali kabbati SDLC analogy tisukoni ippduu miku MSLC cheputanu ade nandi
Match Search Life Cycle . Dintlo 4 stagellu ...
1. PHOTOLU
2. BIODATA
3. PUBLICITY
        -- JAATAKALU
4. Shooting/Hunting..
5. PREY :)

PHOTOLU:
modata cheyyavalasindi pellilla marketloki vadalataaniki manchi photolu teeyinchukovatam.
ye photolu padite avi ivvakoodadu . studiolo neelam gudda mundu nunchi okati, kurchilo koorchoni okati, photo mottam moham maatrame kanapadelaa okati teeyinchukovali. mm abayilu aithe Suit vesukoni digithe Rate ekkuva vastadi . pelli sambandhaala kosam photolu teeyataaniki ’specialist’lu vuntaaru. veella drustilo akkadaku photolu teeyinchukotaaniki vachchina vaallantaa satru desa yuddha khaideelu. studioloki vellagaane interroggation timelo vesinattu, pedda pedda lightlu vestaaru. “sariggaa nunchondi sir, kaasta navvandi…pai pallu naalugu, kindi pallu okatinnara maatrame kanapadaali…yekkuvagaa navvakandi. aa chokkaa gundee meeda inku marakenti, tudicheyyandi ” ilaa oka sepu ragging chesaaka yevo photolu teesi pamputaadu. photolu teesinanta sepoo mana mohamlo ye partu sariggaa ledantoo nimishaaniki okasaari yedipinchi, avamaaninchi, mana daggara 1000 nunchi 1500 roopaayalu gunjestaadu. tira a pholu chuste oka second adi manamena ane doubt katchitanaga vastadi... Mana natural black ni vadu red background tho.. adobe phtoshop lo...mukku shape ni , face cut ni vadi istam vachinnatu marchutadu.. edaina annamante Digital Photography antaru... naku appudu DIGITAL photography -- Defect lu Perfect cheyadam ani oka Caption madiloki vachindi.. mare Blogger buddi ponicchukunnanu kadu . sare mottaniki first stage complete chesesamu anukondi...

BIODATA: photolu ready ayyaaka, cheyyavalasina pani biodata tayaaru cheyyatam. mana gurinchi, mana alavaatla gurinchi chaala jaagrattagaa raayaali. ee biodata maati maatiki maarustoo vunte chalaa ibbandula paalavvalsi vastundi. anduke modati saare aachi toochi BIODATA tayaaru chesukovaali. “cigarette, mandu alavaatu ledu,wife ki equal importance istanu” laanti chinni chinni abaddhaalu paravaaledu, kaani “nenu andamgaa vuntaanu, Wheatish color , roju exercise chestaanu, Ajit Agarkar bowling baagaa vestaadu, ” laanti pachchi bootulu raayakoodadu, assaluke mosam vastundi.

PUBlICITY : mm idi chalaa vistrutanga cheyali... ala ani open ga cheppesamanukondi... intlo vallaki kangaru ekkada mana rate padipotundo ani.. so family relatives lo yea tokkalo function aina... manam office ki selavu pettukoni mari function ki vellali..akkada valla mukku moham teliyaka poina kanpadda prati okkariki mana gurinchi mana job gurinchi financial status guinchi cheppeyali.. mm ivvani malli sequence lo vundali suma direct ga financial status ki velete money minded ani judge chesestaru..... ala oka chinna chirunnavu tho mana family market lo chinna size publicity cheyali... idi kani work out aithe next stage ki veltamu leka pothe bureau lo chuttu tiragalsi vuntadi...

INTLO VAALLA KHANGAARU: I stage anedi depends annamata publicity nunchi direct ga next stage(PREY) ki vellochu mana adrustam bagunte else ikkadiki ravalsi vuntadi annamata.. okkasaari sambandaalu choodatam, modalu pettaaka, intlo vaallu padedaanikanaa manalni pette khangaaru yekkuva. intiki vachchina prati vaadito “maa vaadiki yevainaa sambandhaalu vunte choodaraadoo” antaaru.
aa vachchinodu, single line code ki 100 bugs vaste manager nunchi vache reaction ela vuntado a range lo vadu manalni yegaa digaa choosi “nuvvu kaasta neetugaa vunde battalesukovaali mari, ilaa juttu pennchukunte kudaradu” ani aidu paisala salahaalu rendu ichchi potaadu .
mm i stage intensity kanaka ekkuvatihe katchitanga next stage ki veltam . mundu asala i stage intenstiy anedi enduku ekkuvatudo adi chuddam Reasons
1. mana family lo mana age valla evarikina pelli settle aindi ane varta ravadam leda ekanga pelli card ee ravadam
2. manato paatu chaduvukunna vaalla pellilu aipovadam
I above reasons ki intlo vaallaku blood pressure perugutoo vuntundi. “vaadini adigainaa telusuko yemi tappu chestunnaavo” antaaru. manamemee maatlaadalemu. aina valla kastam chudaleka vadiki evaina telusemo ani TIPS adugutaru... a TIPS ela vuntayi ante..btech paper DROP Chesina ,adrusta lakshmi vadi daggara nidra devata paper valuer daggara vundi pass aina vadu “pareekshalao 100 % marks ravadam yelaa” ane tutorial chepite ela vuntado ala vuntadi... aina tappaka vadu cheppina yedava salahalu patichali...
i stage mari ekkauvaithe next sub stage ki vellalsi vuntadi ade
JAATAKAALU: pillavaadu puttaaka birth certificate teesukovatam marchipoyinaa jaatakam raayinchatam maatram porapaatuna koodaa maruvaru tallitandrulu. pellillu kudaratam venakaala vunna kastaalu telusukunna jyotishyulu jaatakaalu raasetappudu chaala jaagratta padutunnaaru. udharanna ki oka Jatakam

chaduvu: adbhutam

Dhanam: adbhutam

kalyaana yogam: adbhutam (conditions apply * )

Leka pothe

Kalyanyogam : adbhutam ( kudirithe i samvastarm lo leka pothe vache samvastaram )

mmm MIGATA stage lu next POST lo... appatidaka chustune vundadi... paniki rani  topics pina rase i blog ni :) :)

Give me a chance

I Want To Go Back To The Time


When INNOCENCE Was NATURAL,

Not FAKE.

When DAD’S SHOULDER Was The HIGHEST PLACE On The Earth,

Not My DESIGNATION

When Your WORST ENEMIES Were Your SIBLINGS,

Not Your MANAGER(Oh God Please dont make my manager see this page atleast till appraisals :))

When the Only Thing That Could HURT Were BLEEDING KNEES,

Not the TEARS Falling Down Your Cheeks.

When the Only Things BROKEN Were TOYS,

Not the HEARTS.



Give me another Chance ... I Just wanna be as a CHILD .................. :)

give me another Change I wanna be in my ChildHood :)